9w0d-Another milestone

Our baby is officially a fetus now!!  How exciting is that.  I've been feeling great, still no morning sickness to report so maybe I've made it out of the woods on that.  My acne is also really clearing up and I like to think that's because the placenta is now starting to take over hormone production.  I'll be doing some googling on that today.

I won an ebay auction for a new fetal doppler so hopefully we'll be able to hear the baby's heartbeat whenever we want.  I also ordered 3 bella bands so that I can start wearing my jeans with the top button undone.  I am already doing this now on my stretchiest pair of jeans but since I usually wear a hoody over top of my t-shirt to keep warm, I don't think it's too noticeable yet.  I'm sure they'll come in handy as I start to grow.  

Today I think we're going to try and take advantage of the boxing week sales and buy a pull-out couch and matching chair.  Wish us luck!

8w1d-Christmas eve announcement

So much for not telling people till the second trimester.  We've been at the in-laws house since Dec. 20 and it has been so hard to not tell them we're pregnant.  So PP and I decided to spill the beans as we were opening presents which we had to do at 9 on Christmas eve because my FIL had to work at 4:30 am on Christmas day.  So after all the presents were opened, we said, well there's 1 more present but you have to wait until August to see it.  Everyone looked confused for a second, but then PP's mom started to tear up and she knew right away.  Then I said, "We're having a baby" and they all were so happy.  This is the first grandchild for the in-laws so it was extra special to announce it to them in person.  We're calling my parents and sisters tomorrow to tell them the good news!

7w2d-First midwife appointment

We had our first midwife appointment today!  It lasted about an hour and we got homework to do for the next visit which I think is pretty cool.  She talked to us about our family history, took my weight and bp and then sent me for some blood work upstairs.  We won't be getting an ultrasound until 18 weeks at the earliest which is sometime in March I think.  She advised us that we should hold off telling people until our next appointment just because of the risk of miscarriage and we have agreed to wait until then at least.  

Next appointment is on January 15 and she'll try to hear the heartbeat and then do a physical exam.  Luckily her office is right behind where ProudPoppa works so he can come and see if we can hear the heartbeat and then he can go back to work so she can do the physical.  Before then, we have to go through our homework sheet and then write down 3 days worth of average meals so she can see how healthy we eat.  That part I'm not looking forward to lol.  

Otherwise, I'm feeling great!  No real morning sickness to report, I had some moments of gagging here and there but nothing to complain about.  Hoping it stays that way through to the 2nd trimester.

5w1d-Disappearing symptoms

We've made it to the 5 week mark!! I'm still feeling pretty good, only minimal symptoms so far but today when I woke up, they were diminished somewhat. Not completely gone, but just less. It might be just that I've gotten used to them or maybe they have diminished but from what I've read, this is completely normal.

We've decided not to tell people till the 12 week mark, which is Jan. 20th so now the longest 7 weeks of my life begins. I've been joining baby groups on my charting site to help pass the time and the ladies there have all be so supportive. I am enjoying every day as much as I can because I know it can be taken away in a moment's notice, but the nervousness is still there every now and then. Proudpoppa has been great, and has taken a lot of time to reason with me and reassure me that things will be ok. Tomorrow I'm calling the midwife since I can't get in to see my family doctor till Dec. 18. I hope the midwife can take me sooner than that. I'd like to get the initial tests out of the way soon and who knows, maybe we'll have an early (before xmas) ultrasound as our Christmas gift. :)

4w2d-It's my birthday and other milestones

It's my birthday today so as a little present to myself and because I promised myself I would take a test every 2 days till 18 dpo I took another IC test.  It's still positive, and I'm feeling so good today.  That could be because it's my birthday but I just feel so positive that things are going to work out.  

For my birthday, my labmates decorated my computer with balloons and ribbons and they put up a LOL cat poster that was really cute and said something like where's da cakez.  It's nice to be remembered!  And the best birthday gift of all is knowing I'm still pregnant.  This time in September and we were having a m/c so I couldn't have asked for better news!!

4w0d- Still pregnant :)

I took an internet cheapie test and we're still pregnant.  The test was never this dark with the last pregnancy so I'm feeling a bit more positive about this pregnancy.  Of course that can change in a split second but for now I'm trying to be as positive as possible.  I know there is nothing I can do to change what will happen and I'm enjoying each day as I can in case something does happen, so this baby knows it's loved no matter what.  

Symptoms that are different from last pregnancy:  Sore boobs, sore back, headaches, lightheadedness (is that even a word), hungry all the time (though I had that with the last one), tired after work, slight nausea in the morning but nothing that would stop me from working.  I'm looking forward to some serious morning sickness once we make it past the 6 week mark.

I'll be taking another test on Tuesday and then another one on Thursday just to feel better about this and then once we make it past Wednesday I'll be phoning the doc/midwife.  Hoping to make it that far!  Baby steps (no pun intended).

We're having a baby... again!!!

It's been 2 months since the miscarriage and we just found out we're pregnant again! Being overly cautious with this one and I know I won't be feeling like celebrating until we make it past how far we made it the last time (5 days) but it's still nice to know that we are capable of getting pregnant relatively quickly.  Here's to making it past Wednesday!

So sad :(

I think it's safe to say we're not pregnant anymore.  Today I woke up to blood and kind of knew that this was it.  Called the midwife, they sent me for an ultrasound.  The ultrasound showed nothing in there (although it was too early to see anything at all even if there was something in there).  I took another test tonight and it was negative.  Needless to say, we're both devastated. It hasn't even been 5 days and we've gone from absolute elation to complete devastation.

I guess we have to start the roller-coaster ride all over again this month.  I'm praying it doesn't take long to get pregnant again, and that this one has some built in crazy glue to stick in tight.  

4w2d: A little scared and worried

I know I shouldn't be worrying.  The nurse and midwife who I spoke to on the phone both reassured me on 2 separate occasions that this is totally normal, but it is the most disconcerting thing on the planet to see when you're pregnant- brown spotting.  It isn't heavy, only at times accompanied by cramps, but yet, despite being told it's normal, I still worry that this baby is not going to be with us for long.  I cried for a bit this morning thinking that we could be losing our baby, and I'm praying so hard for the bean to stick, and I know that no matter what I do, it's all in God's hands now.  Please let this little one stick.  I didn't think I was attached yet, but I am, and I want this baby to stick so much.  

3w6d: It still hasn't sunk in yet.

Well I went to the walk-in clinic at my University today and had a pregnancy test done there just to confirm.  Their tests were not nearly as sensitive as what I used yesterday, but a faint line eventually did show up.  The doctor I got highly recommended us go with a midwife rather than an OB/GYN, which we were planning on doing anyway, so when I got back to work, I emailed the midwife that I had already thought of going with.  She emailed back and we've arranged for a phone chat later this week.  She mentioned she may be going on vacation at the end of the year so she may not be available to deliver our baby, so we'll have to see.

It still doesn't feel real.  I keep thinking that this is going to be taken away from me at any minute.  Even just chatting with my husband about it makes me feel so surreal.  I think it'll start sinking in once we have our first official appointment, until then, I'm still on cloud nine.

Wow... just, wow!

Well, what a day it has been. Today my fertility friend chart said it was time to do a pregnancy test and see if I was pregnant. This is just our 3rd month trying, so I wasn't holding out much hope. That being said, I had been having some symptoms like having to pee 20 times a day that raised my suspicions, but I didn't want to get my hopes up just in case.

So this morning, I took my temperature (it went up 0.1 of a degree) and then went and pe'ed on a stick. Well the results were less than desirable. After 5 minutes, I thought I could see a faint line but figured since the 5 minute time limit was about to pass, it meant nothing, so I threw it in the garbage and went back to bed. Well, when my hubby woke up he wanted to see the crap test and when he looked at it he saw a line. I did too but it had already been an hour (well past the time limit at this point) so we resolved that I would hold my pee for as long as I could possibly stand it and try again with the other test.

Well, 4.5 hours later, I tried another test and sure enough, within 1 minute, I had a positive. I showed my husband and he said "pee on the digital" lol. We had picked up a digital test yesterday and I figured I wouldn't use it till later in the week if we had been getting promising faint positives. Well I buckled and dipped the digi test too. Sure enough, 2 minutes later, we saw the word "pregnant" and since we're in Canada we got the French version too. Here is the pic:

We are both thrilled but can't believe that this has finally happened to us. Now the dreaded 3 month wait begins. I'm heading to my University clinic tomorrow to confirm things and get referred to a midwife. Here's to a sticky bean :)